The First, Inevitably Awkward Post

Do you ever have days when things are, shall we say, jumbly? When you feel like you have T-rex arms and a million things to accomplish that require full-sized limbs? I've felt this way every day for the past two weeks.Classes ramped up, my work at the hospital increased, and I, without intentionally trying or deciding, shrunk considerably in my effectiveness.

"I have a big head and little arms. I'm just not sure how well this plan was thought through."

This post was going to be inevitably that awkward. Since I've placed myself willingly BACK into this position (that's right, I tried once, decided against it, then willfully returned), I have re-discovered what it means to be busy. I sincerely enjoy the pulse and pace of a life with 40 hours of work, studying, volunteering, and squeezing out moments for friends and my SO. Oddly, I view this as a sign that I'm meant for the career. I want to be busy, I want to be of use, and I don't mind flailing about until the ride slows down. Of course, in a post-bacc program, that won't be until December but you get my point.

I turn 30 this year and feel more confident than ever about my skills and abilities. At the same time, we're in Science Defcon 5 until I complete the MCAT next year. While my effectiveness feels very limited, at least I'm doing well in class. And coffee. I'm doing very very well at coffee.